Bring on the beach

I’m going to the lake today.  I love the water.  I can tolerate the sun if I have some shade and a place to cool off.  There is something refreshing about being on a beach.  Somehow I find it can wash away some of the stress and I can just BE for a while.

There is no laundry or dishes or gardening or rooms to clean.  No bills, no tv.  Just Water, sand and sun.  A reclining chaise, an umbrella for shade, a snack, book, and PEACE.  When its too warm, a float on my inner tube, probably with my dog lying on me.

Talking with a good friend, while our girls play.  Maybe dozing.  Just staring out at the water.  Enjoying a moment.  I don’t often do that. Its hard for me.  But I actually took the time to reschedule a therapist appt so that I could do this trip today.  Yeah me!

In my head, I’m calculating what I need to pack to bring along. Debating if I wake the sleeping teen and drag him along too.  (I’m thinking yes, as he never gets up or goes anywhere, but not sure if I want the fight or the grumpy kid next to me)  Ah decisions decisions.

What is it about water and sun, that just make you feel better?  I don’t like just the sun. I get hot and uncomfortable.  I love water.   I think I always have.

I’m hoping that this day will rejuvenate me a wee bit.  Help me to let go of some of the anxiety I have dealt with this week. I think it will be a great day.

I’m leaving the house as is.  I’m not going to worry about the dishes or laundry.  They will be waiting for me upon my return anyways.  I’m going to find my sunblock and swimsuit, my floppy hat, my flipflops and an unhealthy snack! I’ll change out of my granny panties before I go.

Well I guess its time to stop talking about it, and do it!

And that’s me today. GP

My life as an Ocean Storm

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Ok, so I have this space so I can write, vent, and generally be too verbose about all the twirling thoughts in my head.  So now I can’t decide what to write about first.

I like the picture I picked because to me it represents my life. I have something beautiful (ocean, landscape) but my thoughts or the actions of my life (the storm clouds) are lurking just above threatening to make it miserable. Or worse, the storms HAVE hit and unleashed fury on our landscape and made a mess. But once the storm passes, there will be beauty again.

I feel like I’m living in a constant storm.  I am waiting for that calm.  and waiting and waiting and waiting…  OK already, enough of the storms. I want the beautiful sunset part now.

Time will tell what the storm washed ashore.  What treasures and what demise.  But right now I’m still slogging through the puddles of mud and water and my boots are leaking.  I need to find a rock to climb on, but I just keep tripping on the stones. Occasionally I’ve found a beautiful shell, but its either broken or gotten lost.  I know they are there though.  I see glimmers of them, peeking out at me. Offering me hope.  Today the rains have stopped and the clouds are parting, and it seems like calm seas may lie ahead, but I fear another storm is brewing just beyond the horizon ready to rear its ugly head, when I’m least ready.

and that’s me today. Granny Panties!